Originally Posted by
siamcat 
How can I forgive myself for any of this? I'm supposed to look at myself and say 'I forgive you siamcat, you have a 'disease' and it's not your fault, you're trying to get better now so all this is ok'. It's NOT OK! It's NOT OK that I've RUINED things and HURT people and GIVEN UP possibility and STUNTED my growth on EVERY PERCEIVABLE LEVEL EVER!!!!
Crap,... I don't know.
How about starting with today, yesterday is gone. Don't dwell on it any more than your dropbears or heffalumps. Concentrate on making today a success. Tomorrow today will be one yesterday that you wont regret.
I'll be looking into heffalumps soon, I'd forgotten all about them. I don't know where I'm going to find that book though...
Take care, bon appetit, dessert must follow.