Thanks all:ghug
I'm feeling very disturbed right now. I caught a thread on the newcomers forum before it got closed down. Basically it was someone who had fallen hard off the wagon after 49 days and was obviously intoxicated and wallowing in self pity. She then claimed to have taken pills to kill herself. I've traded several PM's with her and hope she is just bluffing. What was disturbing is I could have written the thread, right down to the drug she says she took and the ammount she took. It was only through what, even as an agnostic, I can only describe as an act of god that I am here today. I'm not going to get into the details as it serves no useful purpose, but I hope that maybe, hopefully what I was able to share with her may help. I know I'm hurting right now because of it. But I'm not going to drink and I'm not going to get high. I'm probably also not going to sleep very well, but that's OK, I can sleep tomorrow.