I probably have nothing new to add to this thread. I was told repeatedly in rehab it was a disease. I don't believe it.
I think it's a neurotransmitter re-rerouter issue. Thus why picking back up to almost the same point in active addiction after being clean/sober is a problem. Whether it is a disease that has a treatment and a cure I rather doubt that.
I am not powerless over drugs. I seriously have the choice to swallow something or not. That is not a disease in my book. If one has cancer one can't willpower one's way out of the disease. I can't decide I am done with cancer and it will be gone.
But I can choose to not swallow, ingest a substance and I have that choice.
. I don't obsess about getting or using drugs daily, and maybe the grace of God is watching out for me but I feel that it is my decision that I am powerful over drugs and can decide without mumbo jumbo and prayer over it that I am done. I think addiction can be broken once a person has had enough or the pain of the addiction. MInd over matter so to speak.