Wewlcome to SR Kelly
You know if Nothing Changes Nothing Changes. We are addicts we use, thats what we do and have done for so long its ingrained in our skin blood and bones, we have a disease which can be arrested if we dont use drugs. Thats whats wrong with us, well not wrong we just have a different reaction to any mind or mood alter substances.
What are you doing to look after yourself keep clean and get well. Do you have some support? There are many different kinds. Here is a list
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-programs.html
There is always hope and as you clearly have the desire to quit using, keep reading and posting here and have a look at face to face support options
You can PM me if you want to talk or vent or have any questions. I am happy to be here for those new here and old here
SR was my start to a new life and the freedom from the grip of addiction. Today I live a full life without drugs and without the obsession and compulsion to use drugs.
You can too, we all can if we reach for recovery and keep hold of it always.
Kevin