You won't be the first to wonder if you're really alcoholic gniess - I went through a thing like that this very year....and I nearly died from the stuff 2 years ago.
Based on anecdotal evidence, it seems some can give up X and dabble with Y...I doubt that would be the case for me.
I've done my experimenting.
I like me, and I like my life, as is - although neither are perfect...
I fold
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