When I first came here I we had a spirited debate in our class thread about pot use. The ONLY reason I don't toke now and again is because I get tested at work. That being said, I am sort of glad it wasn't available to me when I quit booze or I wouldn't know that I could do it sans substances.
I am TERRIFIED to drink a beer. I don't believe in most of the mumbo jumbo about disease and my genes and what not, but I know I have depended on alcohol to see me through every big hurt in my life, and I thought I needed it like air.
I am free now, I no longer have a master. I don't want to know what it would take for me to relapse.