HI VS..Soryy your feelin like that.
I havent had 5 mos clean before either.
I had 4 mos. And I thinkI get like that in cycles. I am not sure how often. But I do get exactly like that for a couple days..sometimes a couple weeks at a time. Then I am just fine for awhile.
I am not sure what its all about.
I dont want to take meds either. I did try a couple years ago and I believe I had a very bad reaction to them. So I refuse to even try now. Which isnt good.
I really have no advice. Just wanted to let you know your not alone and I am thinking of you.
I woul talk to a Dr and see what they say.
I have seen some people react very welkl on meds.
Hope you feel better soon.