Vivid, congrats on 5 mths! I fought taking medication for depression for about 20 yrs, I just wouldn't consider it; then I went to see a wonderful psychiatrist who said to me "if you were told you had epilepsy would you take medication for it?" of course I said "yes" and she said "depression is no different it is a medical condition". I've been on anti-depressants for 15 years and like Bam said I've never noticed any mind altering going on, anti-depressants do nothing for those that are not depressed. Stay strong.