Hello, vivid. I've never made it to five months sober, but I had depression before I started drinking...a good year or so before I self-medicated.
I'm on anti-depressants now. I'm currently going through the process of shuffling through different combos.
None of what I'm on has ever made me feel drugged or high. When it works, I've had some feel good moments, but not of the mind-alterting kind...know what I mean?
Nothing that I'm on is habit forming. My doctor and therapist know about my drinking...I've been very honest...so I won't get anything that I can abuse.
I think you should talk to your doctor or psychiatrist. You can tell them of your concerns about medication and they can help you from there. They may suggest various forms of therapy to help you learn how to cope. Some people with depression or mood swings (I get those often) do not use medications and do fine with only therapy.
Take it easy.
