I don't even know for certain whether or not he is using. The emotional roller coaster his behavior sends me on is just getting old. I won't sit back and let him self-destruct in front of us. If he does start using, then he will have to leave. Last time, we left. Moved back home with my parents. Changed schools. Turned OUR lives upside down. If he uses again, HIS life will be the one that gets turned upside down. How do you draw the line between making yourself crazy snooping/doubting/questioning and not burying your head in the sand and just letting his actions take him where they may?
Right now, all I have are suspicions and doubts. But maybe it is just a sickness in my own head. How do I know for sure? That is what drives me crazy. I have no proof of anything right now. Just my feelings that things don't seem right.