Katie, I couldn't sit with the pain that was caused *by my drinking*
It all seemed normal to me, one crisis after the other. Couldn't understand how I could be so unlucky. One thing...after another, day in and day out, here we go again... It never occurred to me that all the trouble was caused not only by *me* but as a result *of* my drinking.
Never mind your house burning down Katie, you and your animals could have died in the fire.