Originally Posted by
liveweyerd 
Katie,
you are going to throw out your treatment group and your volunteering?
No, I am going to continue both. It's just that my group isn't until tomorrow night and I didn't go to volunteer this a.m. Actually, I have been sleeping quite a bit. I do need to get out of here though. My friend has a place for sale in CA and I am going to think about it. Granted, it's in a town I don't know probably with no jobs, but it's not like I'm doing anything here either. There are no jobs to be had anywhere, it seems.
Some of my habits are more easily changed with a change of venue, for example, caffeine is a no-no to me, yet married with a husband who made coffee each morning and was not able or wiling to go decaf with me...I wound up drinking caffeine again.
We have divorced, no one is makiing coffee each morning and I don't miss it at all.
I am addicted to cigarettes. No matter where I go or whom I am with....nothing is going to affect the fact that I will always make sure I have cigarettes and feed my addiction to them. And I don't know what it will take for me even to think about stopping that addiction.
Well, I do hear you on the smoking addiction. Damn. Quit for 15 years and then picked it up again and now it's 15 years later again. It IS a tough thing to give up.