Originally Posted by
Katie09 
Yes, and I do try to keep my side of the street clean, as it were. I just get tired of people saying that I am looking for an excuse to drink. Truth is, I need no excuse to drink. It's a coping strategy I have employed to deal with things I don't want to deal with. I have a tendency to not say what I am feeling in the minute, let it stew over days and then drink. Not good.
And I bet I am not alone in this. I venture to guess that a lot of people like me don't want to fight, don't do conflict well and drink because of this.
*Bam raises both hands in the air*
Katie...one of the biggest reasons I've relapsed time and time again is because of suicidal thoughts. I know I'm not allowed to talk about it here, but it's a
huge problem. It's a shame that this is such a taboo subject. At least my therapist knows what's going on...I've been very honest.
My thoughts/emotions take over time and again. Sometimes it's too much to bear.
I'm hanging in there, though. I'm working with my therapist and doctor right now to get the best treatment.
One thing that helps me a lot is getting away from people. I go for walks and take pictures. It is a way to cope.