I told myself that I wanted to give it all I could, try everything before I threw in the towel. It was a lie. Not an on-purpose lie, but I was deceiving myself. Really, I was still clinging to the idea that I could save him. That if I just stuck it out long enough, he would see the light and we would live happily ever after.
I understand where you are at. Acceptance does not come easy.
I bet if you took a poll here you would not find many people who wished they had tried harder. I bet you would find many who wished they hadn't given so many 'one more chance's.'
Please keep your (and baby's) well-being your number one priority. ((()))
L