i love you trish. it hurts when it hurts. I know there's nothing I can do. in fact there should be nothing that i would want to change in you either...because I love and honor your path as it is. when you are sad or angry or frustated, I can relate. sometimes people can be uncomfortable when a friend is sad, angry. I've noticed that happening sometimes in myself when my girlfriend is not "happy". anyway hang in there...and know that you are an inspiration to me and many others.