Hi Tish, Yep, you're really not having a good time right now. This anger stuff has to be controlled. It's hard to go through life being pissed at the whole world. I didn't see any mention of whether or not you go to AA. If you don't then that's a good place to start. Seeing a counselor is also a very good option, as is taking some courses in anger management. I suspect that financially this would be a problem, but there are a lot of city/state programs that are available for free. Check you local area and see if there's a Community Service Board or something like that. They exist for the sole reason to help people like yourself. And feel free to vent here. This is a great site full of people who can advise you because they've been where you are. I'm rooting for you and hope things turn out for the best. Keep us posted as to how you're doing.