having a bad evening....4 more hours to go....
my eyes lingered just a little too long on the liquer store and thoughts about how the first shot goes down....are just a little too vivid.
problem really is...i don't care all that much that i'm thinking that way...well its given me a little scare or i wouldn't be posting...
frankly i'm just too worn out right now to deal with analizing this...
I'm just gonna figure this feeling will go away eventually... do some posting, lead a meeting, not real charged up about it...but then again...i'm the bouncing ball and i suppose i'll feel just fine 2 hours from now.
there is definatly some self pity going on and some resentment....but mostly i just feel like being shut down...this stupid sht in my head is getting old...i just wanna turn it off.