if you have doubts............i think your right ...i think you need to try some controlled drinking.
Commence drinking and stop abruptly.......do this several times over a period of a few weeks..
while you think you can control it you have little chance of stopping drinking total.........imo.
do i think your alcoholic.........???
yes mate i do...........BUT it isnt about what i think.
You said something that summed up the whole share that makes it plain to me.
"WHEN I GO OUT.........I CANT STOP".........
Think about what you said for a minute.........my wife who is a social drinker has never ever ever said......i cant stop........ever......thank god.
good luck with it.........and god be with you.
trucker