Personally I agreed with the sentiment of Donna's post, if a person has no interest in recovery, they have no place on a recovery board...I just thought it was unnecessary to say it because Paul is just "torn", like we have all been at one time or another....he was honest about saying it and I think that is a good thing.
Even though everything tells me I cannot drink, I still sometimes want to and wish I wasn't an alkie, I still struggle with denial sometimes...it seems like that is what Paul is going through.
Change is hard, I spent every day off my head in some way or another for 24 years and that is a hard habit to break...but today I have been sober for 45 days and am happy to be sober, no struggling, no denial. Knowing you can't drink and being happy not drinking are two very different things but when you get both together life gets easier.
I sort of lost my point, lol. I will just press "post" anyway.