I feel like I am reliving my first husband's death.He was everything a great friend ,lover my best friend.He was a carpenter and died on the job 30 years ago,now with me actually really believing that I am leaving my second husband it seems like the pain of losing my first in in my head and heart again too.I wrote my husband a letter and told him if he quits I will help support him.But now here is the news I don't think I want him back even if he gets clean.My Higher Power is really helping me,he even came into my dreams the other night and looked like Tom Selleck..
Thank you all so much for your help and wisdom I think you are all my higher power too now