((((GwenMarie))))
You are a smart woman. Sometimes we get used to what is normal for our situation. We get numb. Your feelings are hurt. When we feel pain it means something is wrong. Even if it is pain that does not make you bleed it is still real.
I would like to suggest you do some praying about your situation. Also some meditation might help. I always get a fresh perspective on my life when I meditate and I feel energized as well. When I meditate I start by repeating a favorite bible verse that seems to coincide with my life at the time. I also have a few all purpose phrases if I am lost my all time favorite phrase is: "the joy of the Lord is my strength"
I have faith in you. I know you are a warrior. Keep walking in your faith even though your situation my restrict you movements your spirit is still free.