gneiss

It's good to have you back! I missed your posts.

I wanted to point out the above snippet. I'm not in your shoes, I know you have spent a long time looking for a program that will work for you and perhaps the above sentence is shaped by those years. And this is in no way an attack, just my reflections on my recovery that I hope may benefit you (though you have been working on it a lot longer; sometimes it seems presumptuous to offer up my suggestions as a newbie).

Just from my perspective it seems like telling yourself you *can't* be successful, or you don't *think* you can be, or you aren't even *sure* about it sort of becomes self-fulfilling. If I didn't think I could get c&s I know it wouldn't work. I told myself to buckle down and get it done, that I could do it. And aside from a few bumps along the way, it has worked. For me thinking positively that I could get c&s mattered more than what technique or program I chose.

Welcome back. Love ya.