You guys are right, it really is strange coming here first. I normally would just say to heck with it, then get drunk, then maybe come here with my tail between my legs, or just blow off this group altogether. That's my old way of dealing with drinking, just isolate and pour the crap down my throat. The only time I stopped was when I was close to heaving my guts out, and that's because I was too drunk to clean up the mess, so I'd stop before that happened.
Drunk and stupid is no way to go through life, been there, done that.