HoS, I know just what you mean. Fifty some days ago I threw away over six months sober for one day, one damn day of drinking. It took me two days to feel 'normal' again and my self hatred and shame were off the graph. Now if I feel like drinking, I come here and read read read and post how I feel. And that gets me past the craving. Thank you so much for posting. You have done so much good by telling your sad experience, for me and for any newcomers who might be feeling tempted.
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