Please get medical help, whether in a detox place or at home, in getting thru the withdrawal. Alcoholism will kill you, but not before making you sick and miserable. I've been watching a British documentary called Rain in my heart. (there's a link to it in the alcoholism forum) I don't want to drink myself to death. I don't want to put my family thru the horror of watching me die.
Have you thought about AA? Lots of help in those rooms. Please try to stop drinking. It is possible to stop. I have, and want more than anything to stay sober. You can stay sober, one day at a time. Please get help. You're worth it.