WELCOME back! You can do it! We're here!
I remember hiding my pipe in my drawer (or in the heater vent of my truck), every time I vowed to quit. I didn't know why. I thought "just in case" most of the time. Like I wasn't really just quite ready to give everything up. Or I thought, if I keep it as a reminder, it'll help me stay clean. It didn't, of course. But once I said I am REALLY DONE, I became willing and I threw that pipe out!
I am so glad you're back! I don't have much clean time, only 60 days, but it's been the best so far! The withdrawals weren't nice, but working the path to recovery has been a much more wonderful journey this time through, and I hope to stay on it, and will do what I can to help you with yours! *HUGS*