i need to/want to start clean again. i have progressed from needing medical detox to being clean 6 months to drinking every single day, again. I woke up still buzzed and not feeling so well so i drank what i thought would be one beer, 6 beers later and i do feel better physically. i do not want to go in hospital, i just cannot do that to my daughter. i have some ativan left from last time but truth be told, it is not like being drunk, it is not numbing enough
wow i am a mess.
i just wish i felt well enough to not drink i guess. i feel so sick. any advice? i know for pretty sure i am not unique:wtf2
