Right now I'm feeling a lot of emotions and doing my best to sort through them.
I'm not well enough now to deal with anything other than trying to stay sober.
I feel like I'm back at square one again...it's frustrating...but I'm hoping the feeling passes soon.
I hope that one day I'm strong enough to overcome and focus my energy on issues that matter to me. The key is for me to get well first. I know sobriety is important, but the meat of the matter is my overall mental health...and it was bad way before I ever began drinking. I wish I knew then what I know now...I would have gotten help well over 10 years ago...and maybe alcohol wouldn't be the factor it is....but...what's done is past...I know I cannot change it. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping for the best.
Believing that I can change...change more than just the drinking...to have confidence in all I do and to get a backbone...that's what I'm hanging onto.