Hi bike4life.
Cycling is something very important to me. I bike 14-17 miles on my lunch hour when it's not raining - I try to go 30 to 50 on weekend rides. Time was, when younger and less responsibility, I was riding double centuries. I still do some century rides.
Have kids, not preteens any more, though they are still good for punching me in the arm... ouch
Stressful job... check.
I guess I just want to say that you are not alone here, or anywhere, no matter what brings you true joy in life... cycling, kids, whatever. You want to quit drinking, you are in the right place.
Are you going to try again tonight?... if so, or if not... come back often, tell us more about yourself. I'm 6 months sober, going to some meetings (yes, one is AA) and will be back later...
Mark