Rob B

You will be soon if things don't change. Sound like you are suffering from untreated alcoholism, I say this after experiencing the exact same feelings yoú described. Alcohol has never been my problem, it is my solution, it fixes the internal malady that you have described. I have tried to use all kinds of external remedies to fix an internal condition.

Funny thing about alcoholism is that just not drinking never fixed what was really wrong with me, it actually made it worse, because my only solution had been taken away from me. I truly hope you find something to change your inner condition. feel free to PM if you want to discuss this further, I also appreciate your honesty and courage that it took to show your vulnerability, I know first hand how hard that is.