I have done the same in the past -- I was so accustomed to drama, to rescuing and being rescued, to the crackle and fire of so-called "love" (which was actually desperation and need most times) , that when I finally found serenity it felt just like boredom.
Is there anyone you like helping, hopefulone? Do you love animals, or kids, or any other group that you care about? Sometimes getting involved with something like that can be a real boost to the ego, the spirit, and of course the beneficiary of your actions.
I'd say an interesting challenge would be to try to find one new thing you like doing every week. I know that when I was finally a well-rounded person, with my own friends, interests, commitments, etc., only then did HP see fit to send along someone for me to try on a relationship with.....when I was no longer someone looking for my missing piece, but a whole creation in my own right.
Good luck - this will make you a bigger, stronger person in so many ways.
