Okay so I am going back to our home state with the children (where AH still is)probably tomorrow. Because of our court situation, I have to leave my eldest daughter there with him. She chose to be there, regardless of my warnings and pleading, and he and she both need a little dose of reality to their fantasy. I am also going to get the rest of my stuff sorted and packed and get my car to drive back to the new state. I also have a baby with AH who is 1, who will be staying with me in our new state which is where my fam is which is why I am moving here. We have actually been here all ready for over 4 months while all the court stuff was happening. SO anyway, I was planning to stay in our family home for the week or so I was to be there because I can't afford a hotel, and I don't want to inconvenience friends with a baby staying there, and I don't know how long I will be there, etc. But with the reaction I had to his email (see "This is the email" thread) and getting sucked back in so easily, plus the other thread reminding us of no contact, I am really second guessing my ability to be there and not get sucked back in. It is all ready so emotional having to leave my daughter and it would be so much easier to just go back to how things were, that I am afraid I would never be able to leave. What do you all think?
