I am a jerk. I bite the hands that feed me because I don’t like to accept the blame for my situation. I am angry. I placed that anger on you, which was wrong. I’m angry that my marriage will likely fail even though I have done everything in my power to be a good, supportive wife. My ability to communicate my true feelings has suffered as well. I lashed out at those who were brutally honest with me about what I am responsible for. Still, I struggle with myself about what the right thing to do is. I have two kids to think about. Half of the time I don’t know if I’m coming or going. I just wanted to apologize for my deficiencies and that I lashed out at those of you who were only trying to help. I hope you can accept my apology and also my faults as part of who I am at this time.
