This is the email
This is the email where I somehow got sucked back in to my codie ways. I was shocked at how quickly it happened, I have been done! I left the state! And even felt hatred toward him just a few days before this email made me all weepy and sad and wishing it could have been different, etc. Can someone explain why this affects me so? Any other thoughts are appreciated.
I miss you more than I guess you know.
I didn’t sleep with her cuz I told her I simply couldn’t.
You have been my woman for so long I couldn’t do it. Its weird.
Its one of the things that broke us apart this last weekend.
Its weird and hard for me and she doesn’t understand…which I don’t expect her too.
I will end this with, I loved you more than life itself, as the man of the family I always did my best to do my job which was to provide. Im sorry I wasn’t emotionally available enough for you
I thought and dreamt that we would grow old together on our Island home between the other homes we bought together.…
So much for dreams and love.
Please relish in the fact that you have taken the breath
Out of my reason for being.