Welcome!
I too am glad you shared..you have "been here" as long as I have too!
My experiences with A's were extreme..one ended in violence.. one in the
aftermath of abuse, and one in terror it would happen again.
Your situation is very different, but I sense the pain and "stuck" feelings coming through your post.
I've surely been there..
I really like what what Blessed4X shared here..
"For now, you might want to ponder something someone asked me recently. Can you live with him, just the way he is, and be able to find peace and contentment?"
This a good question, only you can answer..but maybe you just don't even know what you feel anymore.
I would suggest Alanon..it is fantastic.
But to start..just keep talking to us. It helps to "get it out"..it really does.
You have found friends here, 4Peas..
Many friends.