Thank you guys for the responses! I know mentally I am unhealthy at this time, that is why I took the steps and started therapy for myself. Trust me, I am not the type of person to be a snoop and I am not proud of myself at all for doing this but that is how bad my mind takes control sometimes because I do not trust her from ALL of the lies she has told me. It is hard when you are not sure if your entire relationship has been a lie and you are not sure if you even really know the person,especially if they don't really know themselves because they have been high for years. I am hoping that therapy will help me cope with all of this. I have talked to her about NA but she said she would never go to NA again....her excuse is they sell drugs outside. Every time I try to bring up NA or some type of support group she gets irritated with me and says she is doing her best right now and eventually she will start some type of therapy/group.