Instead of being furious at yourself, maybe look at the blessings of your night.
The only thing I kept thinking of was Thank God your boyfriend didn't die.
*edit* Sorry secular folks not trying to bring God into the converstation.
Just my words........ or thoughts, whatever......
No, I don't know how much meth was in there, but still not a smart move.
I remember when I was pulled over and searched by the cops when I was
doing meth it was one of the scariest times in my life.
I got myself to a meeting the next day, and it changed my life.
I understand why you are mad at yourself, but being mad at yourself
isn't going to help as much as if you do something about it.
Try and look at this as an opportunity to move to a better place, a new
direction. You were given a warning by someone, is how I took it.
Take it however you want, just don't take the good luck you were given
for granted.
JMO, take what you will.
I am glad you are both okay.
:ghug2