I know...
actions speak louder than words.....I can't believe all this sometimes, I really can't.
It's like your almost just as addicted as they are and I don't understand this to safe my life.
It's not the "bad boy" theory, although I do seem to prefer them.....
It could be the "drama" thing.....I read up on that too.
Maybe it's the wanting of something you know you can't have?
I don't know what to do....and when that happens I do nothing but be very still.
I feel so bad knowing if I do go back and even just hang out with him....without the emotional attachment, I will feel bad because it will not be good for him. Someone needs to say what they mean and do what they say.....
For now I'm going to stick to the "break time", not for him, for me....
I know I would cave in if i were to talk to him or see him right now.....and it's to soon.
Jesus....
Does anyone ever make it through this and stay together?????
I'm not sure I'm emotionally ready to let him go just yet...yes, thats a selfish thing to say and I'm sorry for it, but this was not what I signed up for and I need the support I get from him.....I think.
I do have an appointment with a IC next Tuesday
This is too much to handle alone......
Wow....i think I got a little freaked out reading the posts today, and yes, that is a good thing.
So sad...