Hi LaDita,
No, I've never had religion envy. Haha. But I can see that it could be comforting to have something to... lean on? blame? hand over the tough decisions to?
I'm assuming you've read up about different religions to see if any of them grab you? Although it would be hard to "believe" in something if you just simply *don't* believe.
I know some people who find a lot of peace through meditation - not in any particular spiritual discipline. Have you tried that?