The 'being wrong' part of your post hit home with me. I was always sure someone had it in for me....or was talking about me....or was gonna talk about me.
I never equated it with drinking, but since I've stopped, I never think that way. Okay, hardly ever.
Lots of stuff to think about in your post...you've come a Long way! btw, quiet and simple is the way to go for me now, too.