I would never be mad at you for sharing the truth of your expereicnes Bam
(well ok I would, but thats just cause i'm human and you knw....we get bent sometimes)
What you are doing right now is EXACTLY it...you are sorting and speaking WITHOUT an ounce of alchohol in your system.....JEEEEZ thats huge!!!!!
I have friends I watch not do this and it just kills me...I mean I want you to feel better...but your right this getting it out..admitting to why you aren't buying into something...thats improtant...
Keep talking bam...get it all out