SJLady

I just discovered some things about my husband that he had kept hidden from me. These are things from his past as well as things that have happened during our marriage. These are things that aren't necessarily connected to drinking. I always admired my husband for his high moral character and I am coming to the realization that perhaps his character isn't as high as I thought. I know that this isn't a case of me seeing only what I wanted to see. These are things that he kept hidden from me. Not stuff that is particularly earth shattering; nonetheless, they were still hidden from me. I expected more than this.

For the first time in this marriage I am feeling truly stuck. I'm having a hard time finding a job. I need to get a job and get the hell out of here.

I want to vomit...I am so upset.