I can relate to the "vanishing friends." Living with an A is very isolating. Many have tried to help me with support, money, housing, etc., and ended up feeling burned when I went back to AH. I know I will have a LOT of amends to make when I start my step work. I cherish my friends deeply and hate the distance I feel from them. I am ready to do whatever it takes to repair those relationships as they are vital to my very well-being.