I appreciate all of the caring people who have posted to help me see that im still early in this addiction which should make my withdrawls less painful, HOPEFULLY, but still there nonetheless. I am still scared of the withdrawls and feeling lousy for a long time, afraid of the anxiety and the emotions that will come out, I tried a small effort to stop ct about a month and a half ago, felt tired, sore stomach, runs, sweats and was crying for no apparant reason. I dont know why i was so emotional. Then I needed to be at my best and gave in and within one hour after giving into the meds, I felt normal again, happy and no tears, what a roller coaster ride to say the least, that is why I have not tried to stop again....I feel so helpless and like a failure, a weak person ect and I dont want to feel like that again