Just checking in. I've been feeling really depressed for the last few days. Talked to BF, he wanted me to go visit him but I had to work. He told me to skip it, which my boss wouldn't care, but I can't afford it. He didn't get mad, but he said, "It's cool. Don't worry about it. We don't have anything in common but drinking and drugs anyway." That really hurt because I think it is kinda true at this point. That's what happens when you do drugs though. It seems like our relationship is effectively over but I hope we can salvage our friendship eventually. It's just kind of a $hitty day.