Prodigal,Thank you, I know this in my head and heart, but when I was growing up I had no encouragement, I was the kid everyone made fun of ect... so it is hard not to have that fear. I'm okay, really I am I know that I will make it, I pull from my HP and believe that if what I think are failures that there is a reason for them, it is my journey... I'm okay. I just keep plugging along doing my best. It's all I got to give!