Easy does it, silkspin.
I feel as though you reacted VERY humanly.
Not perfectly, sure, but I've found perfection to be an incredibly frustrating goal.
My STBXAH has gone through several cycles of recovery/relapse/active alcoholism. Admission of the problem and the initial request for help or support does not = long-term recovery. It is very easy to slip back into the "I'm not as bad as they are" way of thinking about AA. My husband did it, too. Those same words.
He would also ask my permission to have a beer or a glass of wine.
It always made the hair stand up on the back of my neck.
The back and forth of:
"I'm an alcoholic",
"No I'm not",
"This is a HUGE problem",
"It's no big deal",
"I'll never drink again",
"What's wrong with one glass of wine?"
Is crazy-making.
So go easy on yourself. Of course you don't want an alcoholic to drink in front of you. That's fine. That's normal.
If my STBXAH chooses to drink, I choose to leave. I am uncomfortable around an addict with his drug.
Gentle hugs to you today. Go easy on yourself - I think you're doing great!
-TC