I think that I want someone to tell me what to do...I think that is why I feel so indecisive some days..what to do..what to do...because I know myself well enough to know what I normally would want to do but when the time comes I freeze up...i think I want someone else to make the decision for me so that I dont have to be responsible for the outcome no matter how small..i never thought of myself as one to negate responsibility and actually i despise people who do...oh sh*t...maybe that has something to do with it all...ughhh in my head it goes on and on...beautiful today and I sit inside watching movies...what the hell am i afraid of...i want a different life...active life...this is so not me ...not me on the inside....I am a life lover someone who cherishes every opportunity to breath deep and run for it whatever the it may be...but not now..not this time in my life..i feel blocked..frozen...I dont like this me
Thanks for reading my insanity....