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thanks janet and jackie,

a second opinion is what i need. it is not that i dont trust him, but i feel i should not still be sick. it is frustrating and scarey. and i have to get my "mental" health in order. god only knows the swiss cheese thats left of my brains... funny, i knew, i KNEW what was in meth but NOOOOOO i used it anyway and swore i would never IV but i did. i quit smoking about 4 months ago, it helps i suppose but i have felt worse ever since. i scare myself with my thoughts though. i am not a suicidal person, but sometimes get into a mode where it is ok for me to be dead. and i stay in it for half a day until i get so distracted by work i just go home and zonk out. i am a happy person though. haha. and i will rock on.

thanks for your replies!

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