I've tried, believe me. I tried getting the due date changed, I've asked for a lower payment--knowing it will take the rest of my life to pay off that way, but to no avail....I have like 100 dollars after utilities to make it the rest of the month. For food, for lunch money for my kids, gas, prescriptions everything.... I'm sorry, I just am so frustrated that he can just leave and not look back.....Oh lord. I'm scared. My girls know that it's tight - very tight, but I WILL not take their paychecks (my oldest has to pay her own gas and car insurance etc-- I will not take her money for bills.) but they don't know I have the dead feeling in the pit of my stomach at all times. They don't need to see me terrified about life in general...I won't do that to them. <<deep breath>> OK, I'm better now...... I have learned to compartmentalize tho.... wow, do I do that well.... tuck things away and not think about them... it's the only way I can get through some days....